No, I haven't died. Master hasn't given me any writing assignments lately. Training keeps getting pushed back. Now he says he's not even planning a normal slave training and instead wants to focus more on Age Play. I have secretly been wondering if He's serious about having me as a slave, but when I talk to Him he assures me that He is. This new training is supposed to begin in about a month.

At any rate, my apologies for the lag in posting. Hopefully I can update more regularly once this mystery training begins...

Talk of Training. January 11th, 2010.

Master says that my training will begin soon. I'm not entirely sure what to expect, but I can't seem to hide my excitement towards the idea. Anything I can do to please Him will be done without hesitation. I know that sometimes I can become indignant or rude, and for instances like those I am swiftly punished. Maybe after training I'll be closer to being His ideal slave which I do strive to be. It will be tough during training, I have no doubt, but He will make it worth the effort. <3

The Sound of Bells. October 22nd.

My bells~! Oh, it's been hardly a day that I've worn them, but so far is has been perfect! Each step I take is highlighted with the faint jingle of His ownership of me. It's a reminder that makes me inwardly blush, yet outwardly no one would recognize it~! What a lovely compromise. That He would take in my concerns and allow such a compromise is an amazing honor...

Yours. October 10th, 2009.

My Collar. October 6th.

I love my collar. Both of them. I love what they symbolize. I proudly wear it wherever I go with Him. My paranoia though flares up constantly when I where it alone in public it seems... and perhaps that is, in fact, the point. I feel like every eye is on my neck. I feel like I am naked in public; like a bad dream. Like everyone can see my nakedness... Like they can clearly see my hidden secrets. It's scary as hell, but I know that for Him I will overcome it. You see, not many of my friends and none of my family are aware of my position as His slave. I worry constantly that someone I recognize will be there asking me about my collar. Or perhaps if Master takes pity on my timid self I could instead wear something small.Something else to represent His ownership of me such as a smaller choker-like collar, or a slave bell anklet. Until then though I will try my hardest to overcome my fears for Him, my Master.

Desire. October 1st

In public. September 30th, 2009

I left a message for Him this morning in front of my astronomy class building. Thinking back only now do I realize that the people in the crowded courtyard must have heard me. I don't particularly care at this point, as there's nothing much I can do about it now. It's just weird to think about what someone over-listening might have thought. Here's this young girl leaving a message for "Sir" talking about "the rules" and asking if her work has been "satisfactory". Maybe they'd think He is my teacher? And though He is, I ended the message with "I love You!". How atrocious I'm sure it seemed~! If only they knew how atrocious indeed. <3

"O grandmother, what large teeth you have!"

My First Assignment August 30th, 2009

Assignment #1.
"10 reasons I'm glad You're my Master"

1. You pamper me far more than I deserve.
2. You protect and care for me.
3. I'm the only slave for You.
4. You help to shape me into the person I wish to be for You.
5. You discipline me fairly and lovingly.
6. I am Your prize and Your tool for pleasure.
7. I love to please You above all else.
8. You are proud to have me as Yours.
9. I trust You to keep me safe.
10. You know exactly how to turn me on and You exploit this regularly.