Talk of Training. January 11th, 2010.

Master says that my training will begin soon. I'm not entirely sure what to expect, but I can't seem to hide my excitement towards the idea. Anything I can do to please Him will be done without hesitation. I know that sometimes I can become indignant or rude, and for instances like those I am swiftly punished. Maybe after training I'll be closer to being His ideal slave which I do strive to be. It will be tough during training, I have no doubt, but He will make it worth the effort. <3

The Sound of Bells. October 22nd.

My bells~! Oh, it's been hardly a day that I've worn them, but so far is has been perfect! Each step I take is highlighted with the faint jingle of His ownership of me. It's a reminder that makes me inwardly blush, yet outwardly no one would recognize it~! What a lovely compromise. That He would take in my concerns and allow such a compromise is an amazing honor...

Yours. October 10th, 2009.

My Collar. October 6th.

I love my collar. Both of them. I love what they symbolize. I proudly wear it wherever I go with Him. My paranoia though flares up constantly when I where it alone in public it seems... and perhaps that is, in fact, the point. I feel like every eye is on my neck. I feel like I am naked in public; like a bad dream. Like everyone can see my nakedness... Like they can clearly see my hidden secrets. It's scary as hell, but I know that for Him I will overcome it. You see, not many of my friends and none of my family are aware of my position as His slave. I worry constantly that someone I recognize will be there asking me about my collar. Or perhaps if Master takes pity on my timid self I could instead wear something small.Something else to represent His ownership of me such as a smaller choker-like collar, or a slave bell anklet. Until then though I will try my hardest to overcome my fears for Him, my Master.

Desire. October 1st

In public. September 30th, 2009

I left a message for Him this morning in front of my astronomy class building. Thinking back only now do I realize that the people in the crowded courtyard must have heard me. I don't particularly care at this point, as there's nothing much I can do about it now. It's just weird to think about what someone over-listening might have thought. Here's this young girl leaving a message for "Sir" talking about "the rules" and asking if her work has been "satisfactory". Maybe they'd think He is my teacher? And though He is, I ended the message with "I love You!". How atrocious I'm sure it seemed~! If only they knew how atrocious indeed. <3

"O grandmother, what large teeth you have!"

My First Assignment August 30th, 2009

Assignment #1.
"10 reasons I'm glad You're my Master"

1. You pamper me far more than I deserve.
2. You protect and care for me.
3. I'm the only slave for You.
4. You help to shape me into the person I wish to be for You.
5. You discipline me fairly and lovingly.
6. I am Your prize and Your tool for pleasure.
7. I love to please You above all else.
8. You are proud to have me as Yours.
9. I trust You to keep me safe.
10. You know exactly how to turn me on and You exploit this regularly.